The story of my 'So Called' Mother Fucking 'Life'…

So… Descions have been made. I’m staying in jail. I am not getting parole.. But, its for the best… It has to be in the longrun…

Of course, not the entire cast of players, within this play, I am suppose to call my life… Are aware of my descision… But they can wait. They will HAVE to wait LOL

For once, by admitting defeat, I have the upper hand…

I never intended to ramble on here, but today I may… Or may not? Who knows, or cares? Not me! OK, so that a lie… Of course I care… But at the same time, I could, or couldn’t, care less?

So… Major negativity on certain plans. Idiots after money… Letters from or for 33 ! (33!!!) WHY?

But will find out on Monday… Looks like the inevitable conclusion will be occurring after all… Lets hope its not TOO messy… Well, it will be messy… Messy as hell… But whats new ?

Blah blah blah… Bollocks n shit… Pissed off as usual… Ramble over.

Avalanche in Vegas… Nothing back from the USA… No man with belt… Should I be depressed?

I am depressed allready so who cares…

LOL

I guess things are changing direction faster than I ever thought they would… 🙁

But… As suspected, the others are at fault… Nothing new there then… Still the surprise of the day was an invite to stay! I am touched… Genuinely…

Plus the man with the belt is back and smiling down, so all is good.. I suppose…

Will wait till after W/E then chase like fuck… Plus Avavalanche too? Why do people always disappear?

Waiting to hear back from many people… Depressed and lonley. Cant even see the man with the belt at the moment… Sad but true…

I heard back from him! Shock horror!!! Cant believe it! He will update me in 2 (TWO) days… Yeah, well I wont hold my fucking breath!!!
On another issue, much more personal, certain things are much more normal today… The sensitivity issue is *starting* to receded… Much redness, but the sensitivity is *almost* pleasurable… Instead of me being unable to deal with it…

So… Perhaps there IS a god?

Very Cold. Icy cold… Spoke to the man whos supposed to be helping me get home… Well, tried to… 1st call? Not there… So try in hour… 2nd call? Not there… Call in 4 hours… Will report back IF (and I somehow doubt it…) I get through 3rd time lucky!

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Welcome to my world… Wont you come on in? But… You wont want to… & I dont blame you… Trapped. Held away from my life, my loved ones and my friends…

People have asked me, ‘If what you say is true’… But it is. All of it. So I needed to make a record of it. Lies can be remembered. They have to be, or you’ll be found out… But the truth? The truth gets forgotten… Hence the blog.

I will *TRY* to post at least once a day in 2009 and try to explain what is happening. Its hard though. They also say ‘The truth will set you free…’  Lets hope.

Will the truth set ME FREE? I doubt it… I cant get free… Thats why Im stuck here… But… At least Im still alive… Kinda…