Entries from January 2009 ↓

My baby will be set free to go and wet on the world…

God speed my baby… 🙂

To make things that are wet available to the world, on Feb 1st… Requires a total of 10 Min’s work…

Not surprising when its been in development for OVER a year…

So.. 10 Min’s and its done eh? YEP.. Ten Min’s… But it may as well be 10 Years…

GOTTA PULL ME FINGER OUT!!!

ARRRRGGGHHH!!!

Very pleased… No rebuttals… Another piece of the puzzle in place… The idea is to do as little as possible, and not cause myself stress…

Calm is good… Very good… Calm is the new black !

Its SO fucking true… Just one tiny indiscretion from one area affects everything! Whoever came up with this theory should pat himself on the back…

I mean, if ‘blog-project-man’ dont like the Avalanche, then it kicks over into MY dealings… WHY?

Its NOT fair… BUT IT DOES…

The Bomb will be detonated on FEB 3rd!!!

Metaphorical bomb of course… But a bomb none the less… Fall out will be wide reaching and many innocent bystanders will get injured…

BUT IT WONT BE MY FAULT !

I am awaiting a call ! Results to follow later, when I have spoken with my wife…

Will now spend the next 5 hours pacing my cell, while I formulate, discard, re-formulate, change, and eventually come up with a reply…

Procrastination is a GOOD THING!

Procrastination might feel good… But it feels better when its done!

Why is that when I know I need to do something, like write a letter, I think about it, and think about it… Then when I sit down to do it, it becomes a huge job, that I put off… But I know that it will only really take me a few mins!

I spend 30 times longer putting it off that it would take to do it! WHY?

Its RARE something makes me smile these days… Still dreading having to tell people things are different… But considering I have still not heard back from a key player, even when I have informed her of my decision… The fact I get no reply, SPEAKS VOLUMES… 🙁

So… Descions have been made. I’m staying in jail. I am not getting parole.. But, its for the best… It has to be in the longrun…

Of course, not the entire cast of players, within this play, I am suppose to call my life… Are aware of my descision… But they can wait. They will HAVE to wait LOL

For once, by admitting defeat, I have the upper hand…

I never intended to ramble on here, but today I may… Or may not? Who knows, or cares? Not me! OK, so that a lie… Of course I care… But at the same time, I could, or couldn’t, care less?

So… Major negativity on certain plans. Idiots after money… Letters from or for 33 ! (33!!!) WHY?

But will find out on Monday… Looks like the inevitable conclusion will be occurring after all… Lets hope its not TOO messy… Well, it will be messy… Messy as hell… But whats new ?

Blah blah blah… Bollocks n shit… Pissed off as usual… Ramble over.

Avalanche in Vegas… Nothing back from the USA… No man with belt… Should I be depressed?

I am depressed allready so who cares…

LOL

I guess things are changing direction faster than I ever thought they would… 🙁

But… As suspected, the others are at fault… Nothing new there then… Still the surprise of the day was an invite to stay! I am touched… Genuinely…

Plus the man with the belt is back and smiling down, so all is good.. I suppose…

Will wait till after W/E then chase like fuck… Plus Avavalanche too? Why do people always disappear?

Waiting to hear back from many people… Depressed and lonley. Cant even see the man with the belt at the moment… Sad but true…

I heard back from him! Shock horror!!! Cant believe it! He will update me in 2 (TWO) days… Yeah, well I wont hold my fucking breath!!!
On another issue, much more personal, certain things are much more normal today… The sensitivity issue is *starting* to receded… Much redness, but the sensitivity is *almost* pleasurable… Instead of me being unable to deal with it…

So… Perhaps there IS a god?

Very Cold. Icy cold… Spoke to the man whos supposed to be helping me get home… Well, tried to… 1st call? Not there… So try in hour… 2nd call? Not there… Call in 4 hours… Will report back IF (and I somehow doubt it…) I get through 3rd time lucky!

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